CHALLENGE: If I woke up tomorrow and were free to do anything I wanted with my life, what would I do and who would I be?
Dangit Natalie! If I knew that, I wouldn’t be taking this challenge now would I ;)? Haha – all joking aside. Honestly, this is probably the umpteenth time I’ve answered this question or questions like this in an effort to understand what my ideal life looks like, so you’d think I’d have a solid answer by now – I don’t…yet :). Usually, my answer generally sounds a little something like this, “You know, I’m really not sure. I love travelling, learning, eating, reading, writing, eating, relaxing…did I say eating :)? But, I’m really not sure what I would want to do. I love helping people and I enjoy anything to do with building businesses – I think I would want to be a DRAGON – like on Dragon’s Den (to my American Friends that would be translated: a SHARK – like on Shark Tank), but no crazy hours, no less than ideal clients and most importantly I want a team to help me, so I can enjoy life, my husband, my family. And I most certainly don’t want to work hard for my business, I want it to work hard for me. Hmm, maybe I want to be more like Brian Johnson from Philosopher’s Notes/Entheos Academy. His days are mostly comprised of all the things I mentioned above in addition to other things I enjoy like yoga, meditation, teaching and daily massages! I see him and I think, ‘WOW! I love THAT life, that’s real freedom – that I can get with!
But here’s the clincher, I have most of that (not to the same magnitude of course ) and yet still at times, I feel…it’s not enough. Sometimes, it’s made me question whether it IS enough.
But that’s silly isn’t it? (As I’m hearing what I’m saying, I even want to pull out the world’s tiniest freakin’ violin!)
Silly, because how can something I admire and desire in someone else’s life, suddenly not feel good enough when it’s in my own?
***Excuse me while I go beat my head against the proverbial wall.***
I’ll tell you why….because this ‘not good enough’ thing is just a feeling…it isn’t real. What it is – is a habit. Something, I’ve been conditioned to think and got used to hearing and feeling even before I started to want or create this freedom life.
I think for me, the freedom-based mindset starts there – asking ourselves whether we’re willing to debunk, demystify and disidentify ourselves from the beliefs that hinder and prevent us from not just creating but embracing a life we’ll love. Because if we can’t do that, we may end up creating a life we love, only to struggle to love the very life we’ve created.